Choosing between gut, mind, and love
Standing still, ripped heart, messy mind and urge to be loved or maybe just heard for once…
Easy as said, but hard to make someone understand that why are you still waiting?
My mind was telling me “Get back your guards and protect your heart again”.
My heart says “Maybe, you should give yourself another chance.”
My intuition says, “You are not ready for the same heartache.”
Not to be seen and heard by the one you love is another kind of pain. Our family loves us at the cost of protecting us — limiting our growth. Our friends understand us but at the cost of a defined understanding about our personality and they are not ready to give that up.
Some of us hear everyone because we know how it is felt to be unheard. Some of your loved ones claim that they care and hear you. Even if they had ears to listen, they just end up telling you that your pain is not worth it.
If my pain is invalid and not worth it. Maybe I have an opinion that your pain is the consequence of your own stupidity — which can be a fact too. Oh, this is harsh and a rude way to say it. So was your way of telling me that my pain is not as VALID as yours.
